Getting Real With Myself and You!!

So... I am tired of people starting video blogs or regular blogs talking about their weight loss plan and never telling you how much they weigh. Um... Hello... you are obviously over weight or you wouldn't be doing what you are doing. So come out and tell the truth!!
Here is the real deal people... I am fat!!! I currently weigh exactly 200 pounds. I have been dieting for 1 month and have lost 11 pounds, and I started exercising 5 days ago.
Questions and Answers
Was I hard core dieting? No.
Do I think the exercising is helping? Yes.
Would I like more results? Yes!!!!
Have I always been fat? No.
What are my weak points? SUGAR!!
Do I come from what is called "fat stock?" Well... I wouldn't say "fat stock" I would call us "pleasantly plump."
Do I really want this? Um...Yes.(sarcastically said)
Am I a self motivator? No.
Am I okay with delayed gratification or do I need instant? Instant, I need results if I am going to be depriving myself of the food that I love and getting up every morning busting my butt working out.
Is this the fattest I have ever been? No... isn't that sick!
What exercise am I doing? Jillian Michaels 30 day shred.
Background Check
When I met my husband at the age of 18 I was 5 foot and 6.5 inches weighing in at a whopping 125. At the age of 20 I weighed 205. Okay you can pick up your chin and ask the question... Laura, what the hell happened to you!?! Simply put I had toxemia with the pregnancy of our first son that caused me to blow up like a whale. At 22 the story was pretty much the same another baby more fat packed on. I never really lost a lot of weight between baby 1 and 2 so during pregnancy 2 I went up to 245. Yuck!! I feel awful even admitting these things. I don't want to hurt any feelings in saying that. I am sorry if that is where you are or possibly bigger in your weight. But shouldn't we say YUCK! What is happened to us. Why are we letting this happen are we really that weak. YUCK!! YUCK!! YUCK!! Anyway... I digress. I have had a total of 5 babies in a real hurry. They are all about 2 years apart, which means no time for my body to ever really recoup. The most I ever weighed was at full term with my oldest daughter and that was a weigh in of 270. My poor body... the hell I have put it through! After every baby it only takes me about 2 months to get back to my pre-baby weight but is that really good when my pre-baby weight is 200 pounds?Now with a 16 month old, done with having babies and 29 years old I want to fix the mess I have made. Don't I deserve to be hot or at least attractive? Doesn't my husband deserve a wife that is confident in herself? (lets face it ladies an amount of confidence is lost when you look at you cottage cheese butt in the mirror)
As I bring you with me on my weight loss journey feel free to ask me any questions. I want to be brutally honest with you. I might fail... I am hoping not. I am tired of trying and waking up 6 months later just as fat as I was. Can you imagine if I wouldn't have failed where I would be today? HOT!!! That's where I would be. Don't you want to be there? I do!!

P.S. Please leave you thoughts or comments as I made need to use them as motivation.

Goonies

Have you ever seen the movie Goonies? It is one of my favorites. A little too much cursing to allow my children to watch it but a good movie for when they are a little older. Well anyway... Emma is my little photographer, she is almost 3 and loves cameras and taking pictures. She is really quite good at it and I love to see things the way she does. How do these things tie together? Goonies and Emma's love of photography. Well Emma took a picture of her baby brother Dustin and it reminds me of Goonies. Dustin in this picture looks like the big guy that Chunky meets under the restaurant. You know the guy... the big one that can only say one word at a time. For example...Babyruth. I can just see Dustin in this picture saying Babyruth. His ear all sticking out probably from some sticky food he just ate. (no Dustin does not always look like this) I really dont think that my son looks like a deformed big retard... I just hear that guy when I see this picture. So for me it is a good laugh!